what is life life is like a big obstacle its so hard to go on and just live when so many things happen.  why do things happen its not cool too be so down and depressed and feel so unwanted thankfully ive got to people in life who can help me my bro and neon (thanks for everything by the way) im glad they can help a little it just suxs cause its so hard and i really wish i could be tottaly happy yeah im happy sometimes but not tottaly and there are people who can help with that (neon) but i get so low and lonely it hurts me so bad to see things happen right before your eyes and not be able to help well im go to do my best and im changing one year left in high school then ill make something of myself and be happy and hopefully have at least a loving girlfriend or wife and be truly happy knowing i achieved my goals and was able to be happy.  but you know its great how people can help and how much people show they really care and be a true friend and be there when ever u need them no matter what else is happening. neon im truly thankful u came in to my life and that u gave me a chance and allowed me to talk to u and get to know u i can be myself around u and i love it its something i trully love i love u for who u are and what u are ur a great person and friend and hopefully will grow to be more until that day dont leave me behind keep in touch well to all good night and i hope alls well and i hope i get better